October 11, 2004
The arcade game of October 11, 2004
This is the first entry I've had in this blog for quite a while.
Part of that is scanning and posting up photos for two of my other blogs, my high school reunion and my own personal memories.
Last night's dream was a little bit uncomfortable.
It felt like a video game. First person viewpoint. There wasn't any pixels or close-to-real animation or video activated video games, etc....it took place in real life except that it felt like a video game.
I was playing myself.
There were people around me who were possessed by some dark, evil unseen villian and people around me who weren't. There was a building that had a steep staircase to the basement. I wasn't allowed in until I completed the "first level". Basically I was to orient myself to the city, get a feel of it.
There wasn't any shootings or killings. A lot of running and avoiding.
After a while I was allowed inside the building.
The next "level" started with an incantation of the dark, evil unseen villian. I was walking down a short hallway. A woman and a man who were there were possessed and then starting going after me quoting some weird and dark poetry.
When I woke up, I didn't know what to make of it. Was it a game of possession or avoiding possession? Was it a metaphor or pun or something?
Part of that is scanning and posting up photos for two of my other blogs, my high school reunion and my own personal memories.
Last night's dream was a little bit uncomfortable.
It felt like a video game. First person viewpoint. There wasn't any pixels or close-to-real animation or video activated video games, etc....it took place in real life except that it felt like a video game.
I was playing myself.
There were people around me who were possessed by some dark, evil unseen villian and people around me who weren't. There was a building that had a steep staircase to the basement. I wasn't allowed in until I completed the "first level". Basically I was to orient myself to the city, get a feel of it.
There wasn't any shootings or killings. A lot of running and avoiding.
After a while I was allowed inside the building.
The next "level" started with an incantation of the dark, evil unseen villian. I was walking down a short hallway. A woman and a man who were there were possessed and then starting going after me quoting some weird and dark poetry.
When I woke up, I didn't know what to make of it. Was it a game of possession or avoiding possession? Was it a metaphor or pun or something?
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Hey John,
I've had similar dreams that I've written about on my site - where I'm in like a maze or labyrinth, chasing and being chased by other people.
I don't think my dreams have ever been as macabre as yours, but that may have to do with personalities rather than substance of conflict.
I tend to think they're more about the desire to solve puzzles - to challenge oneself and be challenged by others to become more than we are. Once you solve the puzzle, or beat the level, you can go on with your life.
I do wonder if it makes a difference that you descended a staircase into a darker place, rather than scaling one to a higher area.
Do you feel like you're maybe afraid of change that will occur should you try and solve some of those puzzles or try and challenge yourself? Maybe that's why the destination or prize you receive for beating the level makes you worse off than you were before...
My $.02 worth..
Lachesis
I've had similar dreams that I've written about on my site - where I'm in like a maze or labyrinth, chasing and being chased by other people.
I don't think my dreams have ever been as macabre as yours, but that may have to do with personalities rather than substance of conflict.
I tend to think they're more about the desire to solve puzzles - to challenge oneself and be challenged by others to become more than we are. Once you solve the puzzle, or beat the level, you can go on with your life.
I do wonder if it makes a difference that you descended a staircase into a darker place, rather than scaling one to a higher area.
Do you feel like you're maybe afraid of change that will occur should you try and solve some of those puzzles or try and challenge yourself? Maybe that's why the destination or prize you receive for beating the level makes you worse off than you were before...
My $.02 worth..
Lachesis
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: 11:08 a.m.
: 11:08 a.m.
I'm not too sure about that. I think it has to do more of a play on "possession". I worry about being possessive when it comes to relationships. I haven't been in one since I divorced in February. I guess the puzzle is how to avoid possession.
I don't see the destination of the prize I seek making me worse off than before. Good things don't come easy. It takes a lot of hard work and it does involve going deep into places inside me that aren't all that pleasant, but I have to go into it and conquer it. Sort of like conquering my fears.
Kind of like...it's a dirty job but someone has to do it.
I don't see the destination of the prize I seek making me worse off than before. Good things don't come easy. It takes a lot of hard work and it does involve going deep into places inside me that aren't all that pleasant, but I have to go into it and conquer it. Sort of like conquering my fears.
Kind of like...it's a dirty job but someone has to do it.
Hm. Re-reading your post, it sounds more like you are afraid of being possessed than being too possessive. Were the zombies under your control? It seemed like you were afraid of become like one of them. Control issues?
I have a question for you - reply offline if you like - I can't figure out your initials:
lowercase letter (Capital letter Capital letter) lowercase letter
j (PM) r
It's perplexin' me ;)
Lachesis
I have a question for you - reply offline if you like - I can't figure out your initials:
lowercase letter (Capital letter Capital letter) lowercase letter
j (PM) r
It's perplexin' me ;)
Lachesis
# posted by : 3:50 p.m.
: 3:50 p.m.
Question two is simpler than question one. ;-)
j (PM) r
John (first name)
Philip (middle name)
Martin (middle name)
Redant (last name)
Question one: These people were possessed by someone else, but not by me. I'm afraid of being too possessive. It has happened in the past. It's why I've taken a good stretch of time not being in a relationship and just focus on other aspects of my life. I suppose it's that fear that once I do go into another relationship, I'm afraid of becoming possessive again.
Does that make any sense?
j (PM) r
John (first name)
Philip (middle name)
Martin (middle name)
Redant (last name)
Question one: These people were possessed by someone else, but not by me. I'm afraid of being too possessive. It has happened in the past. It's why I've taken a good stretch of time not being in a relationship and just focus on other aspects of my life. I suppose it's that fear that once I do go into another relationship, I'm afraid of becoming possessive again.
Does that make any sense?
Ah, ok. The mixing of lowercase and uppercase was confusin' me...
Typically speaking (though not necessarily in your case) wouldn't a "possesser", meaning someone who has problems with being possessive, identify more with someone doing the possessing, and see the effects it has on that person? Specifically, the "dark, evil unseen villain" who's controlling all the zombies..
I would think, IMHO, that such a possesser wouldn't ordinarily pay attention to the plight of the "possessed" - since, as a rule, a real-life possessive person has trouble understanding or respecting the emotions of the person that they "possess".
I guess to me it seems if you were afraid of being possessive again, you'd be dreaming more of the big bad guy than the zombies, since ultimately you would be more or less indifferent to their situation of being the possessed ones.
However, if you were afraid of being possessed, or losing control of yourself or your life or something else, then yes I can see where you would incorporate that into the big zombie attack.
Again, you obviously know your situation better than I do but thats what it seems to me from the outside...
Lachesis
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Typically speaking (though not necessarily in your case) wouldn't a "possesser", meaning someone who has problems with being possessive, identify more with someone doing the possessing, and see the effects it has on that person? Specifically, the "dark, evil unseen villain" who's controlling all the zombies..
I would think, IMHO, that such a possesser wouldn't ordinarily pay attention to the plight of the "possessed" - since, as a rule, a real-life possessive person has trouble understanding or respecting the emotions of the person that they "possess".
I guess to me it seems if you were afraid of being possessive again, you'd be dreaming more of the big bad guy than the zombies, since ultimately you would be more or less indifferent to their situation of being the possessed ones.
However, if you were afraid of being possessed, or losing control of yourself or your life or something else, then yes I can see where you would incorporate that into the big zombie attack.
Again, you obviously know your situation better than I do but thats what it seems to me from the outside...
Lachesis
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